never thought this kinda thing would occur to me. even for a second. i just had a pretty long and intense chat with my brother and it didn't end up well. he mentioned several things which never came to mind. then i realized how selfish i have become.
guess i have to tone that thing down, or at least put it aside for few months until everything normal again. a tad sad, but this is the best option i have.
ini tuna bakar lama juga ya sampe bisa ngepost dulu :'
anyway, what is happening to me today? everything went wrong and i was the one to blame. now i'm not in a good state of mind. time to call it a day and hope everything will be normal tomorrow.